I'm sort of an insomniac. Now you’re probably saying to yourself, sort of? It’s either you are or aren’t. Well, for many years I suffered with insomnia, and just recently I started to get maybe 2 to 4 hours of sleep a night, if I’m lucky. I don’t know if it’s lucky though. When I do fall asleep I have nightmares. I haven’t had one good dream in years. It’s probably about 7 ½ years. Last night, I had a dream of my 9 year old nephew and this guy I dated over 10 years ago for like a month who was 6 years older than me. I was in this house, and it must have been summer time because I think it was a beach house. Everything was white from the wooden floors to the curtains to the couch. The strange thing was this guy was like 18 in my dream; I didn’t even know him at 18. He was sitting on the couch and my nephew came over to me upset. I had asked him what was wrong and he sobbed while telling me his message.
“No one pays attention to me; I’m left out in the rain.”
There’s more to the dream that went bad, but I don’t remember it and I think its better off that way.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Left Out In The Rain
CiaFai, that would be pronounced Cha-Fai. I’m not that ordinary female. I'm deep and sometimes people don't understand me. I'm artistic and eclectic. I’m always thinking, a disease I can not get rid of. If it’s not thoughts of a song that I’m writing it’s about the world and how people affect me in this place we call home. I love being me, because everyone isn’t surprised if I do anything crazy or out of the ordinary, they sort of expect it from me. I’m sensitive, strong, and I was told that I’ve got a great sense of humor and a heart of gold. I’m very intuitive to everything and sometimes it scares me. You might think I’m crazy, I really don’t give a fuck!
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